after having dinner with Sam Harris (and reading his book: End of Faith), i find myself thinking about religion and higher beings.
it is not a common thing to think about ... especially for someone that is rational.
it is not rational to believe in God. there's not any proof in God. and I am a highly rational person and engineer. yet ... yet i believe in God. even though i am well aware it is not rational.
is it because there are so many unexplained things? is it because i am a product of society and a specific upbringing? i'm not sure.
but, as i am thinking, there are a lot of things i do that are not rational. when i am at a restaurant, even if i will not ever be in that restaurant again, i leave a tip (and i tip the cab drivers, bell-boys, coat-check person AFTER i get my coat, etc). that's not rational either ... but i do it.
i also believe that most people are inherently good and that people often put others in front of their own self interest. and this makes the world a better place to be in.
maybe, even for us super-rational types, there is a side to life that is beyond the rational. not sure if that means it is supernatural ...
so ... i sit here in a small struggle. knowing i strongly believe in a higher being while knowing there is not proof to support my belief.